After a few weeks in our new house, the fear and anxiety started to pass. I started to feel a little more comfortable...but it still didn't feel like "home". The Lord had truly given me a peace about this major change in my life. I had gained a renewed passion for the Lord and His word! What an amazing blessing! During the 3 years prior, my heart was far from Him, and I rarely spent time in His word. Growing up and the fear that comes along with that brought me to a new place in my walk with the Lord...for that I am SO thankful! I had a true peace knowing that the Lord was in complete control and knowing that He would guide and protect me.
Brian and I had just celebrated our 3 year anniversary. We didn't do anything "special" for our anniversary, but we did make a BIG decision! It was time for me to stop taking birth control pills. I had started taking them a few months before our wedding (in 2004), so I had been on them for 3 years. We were so thankful for the 3 years we spent without kids! We had been able to do a lot of traveling and spend time getting to know each other better. But now, it was time! I knew that I wanted to be a mother since I was a little girl, so I was more than ready! We didn't make a big deal about it, I just stopped taking my pill. If anyone asked us, we would say, "Well, we aren't really trying, we are just not NOT trying." I just read my journal entry from August 21, 2007, and it said, "We recently started trying to have a baby...whatever that means?" I had no idea what lay ahead for us! I just prayed for patience as we waited on the Lord's perfect timing. I wish I had prayed more fervently in those days for patience! I didn't realize how much I would need it in the coming months.
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